"But you’re in GERMANY!" Hey! I know I’m in GERMANY! But, I still get weepy-eyed for good ‘ol Morgantown every day. I know that it will still be there when I return, and I know I’m "not missing much", but that’s just it…I’m going to MISS "not missing much". Summers in Morgantown are rad, and it was last summer that I probably had some of my best memories. The language and cultural barrier will make it nearly impossible to make the sort of friends I have made in Morgantown.
With all that being said, I know tons of people would die to have the chance to see the world like I am. Know that I’m soaking in as much here as I can before my year is up. I want to come home, but know that once I’m home I’ll regret leaving such a beautiful place so soon.
This entire experience is teaching me to stand the fuck up for myself and have a little self confidence every once in awhile. Today I confronted my host mother about being overworked and we sat and worked through all of my concerns and now everything is fine.
When I get home, I’m going to cook all my best friends a huge ass dinner with all the new recipes I learn.
I forgot just how much a little exercise, fresh air, and solitude away from my computer and room can do. My mood and outlook improved tenfold, and for that I’m grateful. I took my ipod and ran out toward the forest about 15 minutes from my home. The forest is as magical as I had hoped it would be. The floor is covered in moss and the trees here seem to grow straighter and taller. I found a nice spot and plopped myself down to think for awhile.
On my way back, I found a wooden throne. I swear, there is no other way to describe it. There’s a wooden ladder that leads up to a wooden seat overlooking the forest. This is probably where I’m going to start writing in my journal every day. It’s amazing. Also, in my travels, I found a million huge piles of ceramic roof tiles that I’m going to try and create something out of. Hopefully, picture frames so I don’t have to buy a bunch. Or a wind chime!
Tomorrow I’m leaving Holzkirchen around 11:00 a.m. to meet up with Amber in Munich. We’re going to Bavaria Film Studio and to an Egypt exhibit. Then, I”m spending the night at her boyfriends house and coming home the next morning to sit on my wooden throne. THIS WEEKEND IS GOING TO RULE.
Touring with my aunt was a pretty amazing experience. We visited lots of Ludwig II’s castles and I found him to be very interesting. We traveled near the Austrian border a lot, and I can’t wait to venture to Vienna sometime in the near future.
Everything is just…beautiful here. I mean, having the Alps as a constant backdrop is something I can’t complain about. I DID have my first bout of homesickness today. Just irrational crying and over the top sentimental bullshit. I guess I’m over it now. It’s hard getting the feel for how this family operates. Everything is different and it’s all just coming at me at once. I’m trying to take it all in stride and jot down important notes to remember. They eat SO HEALTHY. Everything they buy is ‘bio’ —which means ‘organic’ in America. Whole grains, fruits, veggies, wheat grass drinks, spoonfulls of liver cod oil (blech). I’m actually enjoying having a healthier lifestyle.
This weekend, I’ll catch the BOB into Munich to visit Amber. She said there’s a cool Egypt exhibit up now, so at least I have something to look forward to.
I feel caught between letting one world go and fully allowing myself to accept another. It’s a hard place for me right now, but I know it’s healthy to move on from certain things back home that are holding me back from enjoying all life has to offer here in Germany.
I guess Leighann says it best:
callmegodzilla (8:13:31 PM): you’re in germany so you can go to the bavaria film studios in munich and ride the life-size reproduction of falkor
This past week I’ve been seeing lots of my favorite morgantown people and places. I bought a pack of polaroid film and plan to take 10 pictures of the things that comfort me the most here. A realization I had this week: I’m really excited, and less nervous than I was before about this whole Germany thing. This is a year long adventure that will allow me to grow as a person. I want to learn how to simplify my life, realize my passions, and become a little more cultured as a person. I mean, unless I get kidnapped and killed in some deserted area in Germany, I don’t see how this could be a bad experience.
Morgantown will still be here when I get back. And, it will probably be exactly the same.